Updated: Feb 6, 2019
Where am I? What's going on? What am I supposed to do?
God says, "You're not really lost...I know exactly where you are, and regardless of the narrative that you think has been written thus far, I'm continuing to both blaze a path for you and guard your back."
I realize I don't have to fake it with Him. No matter the confidence or bravado or passivity or indifference that I project to everyone else in my life, He sees me. And that is such an utter relief.
That means there's at least one person in my life I don't have to hide my true self from. That means there's at least one person in my life I don't have to fake it with or project an exhausting false front.
I can just be me, and that alone is an amazing thing that's almost too good to be true.
With God, I can just be...me.
God, would You show me how You see me? What do You love about me? What do You see when you look at me?